Ok. A couple of things happened yesterday and I'm not sure if I should write about this here. I don't really think it's necessary.

For now, I just want to say that It has been pretty hard to not think about us together back again. Seriously, what should I do? Shurastei or shurago?(couldn't resist). She's ''available" but I don't think she wants me back. I can't say if she wants to just stay as friends or if she feels the same way that I do.
And even if she does, how am I supposed to talk to her about theses things? I mean, she basically said that I'm one of the very few people who really cares about her without some kind of interest behind this ''care". And that's true, I really do care about her.

But if I approach her with the intention of getting back together and these kinds of feelings, wouldn't that look like I am acting out of self interest?

By the way, she was online just now but didn't responded to my messages.

I guess the best I can do for now (otherwise I'll cry like a baby) is to avoid the thoughts of us loving each other again. I need to prepare myself.